(but you don't know me at all.)

of course you would.
of course you were.

of course you did.

indecision sucks.

Psychological (mind over matter?)

So this may be slightly premature, seeing as it's only been a number of hours, but I think I'm finally okay with it all.

What changed?

I'd like to say I did, but I think this goes beyond me and you and us.

Expectations, over-expecting, and let's not forget the underestimating. I think six years of this shit has been enough. More than enough.

This? This here is the end.

"The Final Exam"

Perspective. It's a funny concept. I haven't entirely made up my mind about it yet. Here's but another one of those ambiguous, intangible ideas I'll never be able to grasp, something that I'll only realise after the fact, always after the fact, just to get caught up in the overdone analysing of truths realised only in perpetual, and all too familiar, retrospect.

the others.

who needs people like you when you've got friends who'll bake you cakes and make you superhero costumes?

C, A.

you know, sometimes I catch myself wondering if my cynical attitude is unwarranted, but it's moments like these that validate the way I try to push people away, the way I make scathing remarks about people like you, and above all, the way I try to convince myself that I could make it on my own.
you know what else? so much more could be said on this matter, but I wouldn't want to give you the satisfaction of knowing that, out of all people, you managed to be the one to get to me.

climatic, anti.

i once heard someone say that being scared lets you know that you're onto something important.
now, i think i finally know what they were talking about.


p.s. don't go change a thing.