"They will carry me to the field
Through the wreaths of mist
Moist on my face,
And the lamb will pause
For a throughtful stare.
The soldiers, they will come.
They will lay me in the dark cold earth
And push the clod's in upon my face."
30.8.10
this is the best time we ever had.
i think i've lost my mind and then i find it again.
i'm sick of picking it up off the floor, dusting it off and putting it back. it's old, worn, torn, used, misused, trusted, hated, loved.
it's sick and sad and tired and eager.
it's old and young all at once.
it wants to know what it's like to let go, stay hidden, not be found.
lost forever in a world of dust mites.
it wants to know what it would be like to be found by someone else. to be put back in place by someone else, to be looked after by someone else.
it's holding out for that, my mind.
i'm sick of picking it up off the floor, dusting it off and putting it back. it's old, worn, torn, used, misused, trusted, hated, loved.
it's sick and sad and tired and eager.
it's old and young all at once.
it wants to know what it's like to let go, stay hidden, not be found.
lost forever in a world of dust mites.
it wants to know what it would be like to be found by someone else. to be put back in place by someone else, to be looked after by someone else.
it's holding out for that, my mind.
27.8.10
25.8.10
The Cure
the best news i've heard in a while :)
now there's just the matter of figuring out how...
i can i can i can i can i can i can i think i can.
p.s. "you're breaking my heart." what exactly am i supposed to say to that? sigh (and a half).
now there's just the matter of figuring out how...
i can i can i can i can i can i can i think i can.
p.s. "you're breaking my heart." what exactly am i supposed to say to that? sigh (and a half).
we'll all be...
i don't understand who i used to be.
does this mean one day this will also be meaningless?
does this mean one day this will also be meaningless?
momentum cannot be created, nor can it be destroyed.
so here i am, wondering what else i've yet to realise has also ended.
she says it's sad to think we could have lost so much in the short amount of time we've been living. but maybe it isn't true loss; we're just growing up and moving on.
or maybe it isn't moving on at all when you're still wondering about it?
(or is that evidence that we want to let it go?)
if only we knew what we were letting go of, then we might be able to.
(or maybewe i do. i'm just too scared to face it.)
maybe.
it'd just be easier if you could always be there to tell me what to do.
it'd just be easier if we let go of it all.
yep, all of it, even the day you promised me that you'll make our dreams come true should we ever part ways.
late,
me.
she says it's sad to think we could have lost so much in the short amount of time we've been living. but maybe it isn't true loss; we're just growing up and moving on.
or maybe it isn't moving on at all when you're still wondering about it?
(or is that evidence that we want to let it go?)
if only we knew what we were letting go of, then we might be able to.
(or maybe
maybe.
it'd just be easier if you could always be there to tell me what to do.
it'd just be easier if we let go of it all.
yep, all of it, even the day you promised me that you'll make our dreams come true should we ever part ways.
late,
me.
"i guess disaster is kinda exciting to us."
we thrive on adventure, after all.
i love you to death and you're loving me to my death.
but we'll just have to wait and see whether that's a bad thing or not.
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